Thursday, October 9, 2014
I have so much to share and not really sure where to start first! I guess I could start out by saying that I did indeed finally have my AHHH HAH moment shortly after my last post, April 13, 2014 to be exact :) That would be one reason why I have not posted anything since then. I have been so busy enjoying life and all wrapped up in pure bliss! However, I do want to share my news with you, my great friends, followers, and peeps! I know everyone that reads this has a good understanding of life’s ups and downs, and has been there for me throughout some of mine, and for that I graciously say THANK YOU!! I know for me, I have been at the lowest of low, complete rock bottom, and thought so many times I would never live to see another day with many times not wanting to. I have also now been at some of the best highs I could have ever imagined. Life is INDEED a roller coaster, and you never know which way it is going to turn or twist, but I can truly say without a shadow of a doubt, that I am so grateful I never gave up hope and pressed on. :)
It really is strange how things work out. I have always believed that everything happens for a reason even though more times than not, we usually never understand the why part of it. Having that said, April 13, 2014 was the day that changed my life. I met the man I was meant to spend my life with. It was a feeling that I knew right off the bat, and that is when my AHHH HAH for all my unanswered questions happened. Five months later, September 13, 2014, we said our “I Do’s” to one another. :) Nothing has ever felt so right. Eric has been very supportive through it all, and even made sure that the girls were a part of our wedding. :)
I have been debating on not renewing my site here for the longest time. I still have not decided if I will or not, but I do want to say a few things regardless of what I decide to do. I have been off of all medications for going on close to two years now. I have not had any sort of episodes, etc. and I have definitely endured just as much stress in that time frame or more than I had previously. It does make me wonder if I was misdiagnosed years back. I do know this is very easy to do and happens quite often. However, regardless if I am or if I am not bipolar, it really doesn’t matter to me. I think deep down, and under any serious amount of stress, we are ALL and can be a little crazy. Life is hard and can be extremely stressful at times. I do believe that under the right amount of stress, the right person pushing your buttons, and just every day issues poking at you… you can snap and go mental! I believe this is possible for an human being to experience, and I don’t believe you have to be “bipolar” or labeled with any other medical term to have this happen. Some may disagree with me and that is fine, but this is just what I believe. We are all human, we all have bad seasons in our lives, and just because you experience one doesn’t necessarily mean there is something mentally wrong with you. I think the world in general has become to quick to want to “label” everything. Either way, if I am or if I am not, if you are or if you are not… it doesn’t change the way I think or feel, and it doesn’t make me look down on or judge anyone. I KNOW from experience how life can be, and I think I am a stronger person because of it. It has only given me sympathy for others like me, and helps me be able to relate and help others when I can. So, for that, I am grateful. It sucks to experience such heartache, but I guess I can say that I wouldn’t change a thing because it has made me the person I am today.
I might not cancel my site, because I do enjoy reading, relating, and sharing with all my peeps. :) We’ll see!! :) Have a great night everyone!