Sunday, May 5, 2013
Well today was the start of my second week of work. Work is DEFINITELY “WORK” and by that I mean “physical labor.” I only work 4 days a week, but I work 10 hour days, and I am on my feet constantly so by the end of the day, they are SCREAMING AT ME!! I picked some VERY interesting product today that had me laughing out loud and then some that had me wondering who in the WORLD was on the other end of the computer ordering such stuff!!! LOL!! Anyways… I had to go and pick everything today from a huge box of condoms, a bottle of permanent penis enlargement pills, a box of tampons, to a very large, hot pink, vibrating BUTT PLUG!! YES… I SAID BUTT PLUG!!! ROFL!!! I never KNEW such a thing existed till I held one in my hand today! I HAD TO take a moment to read the back of this thing!! LOL! I was fascinated and grossed out all at the same time!!! I didn’t know what it was for, and still have no clue lol! Furthermore, who in their right mind orders TAMPONS online??? Idk?? I was just really taken back by the stuff I had to go and pull today lol! Oh well, at least it made me laugh at work!! I definitely saw things I hadn’t seen before and probably never would have!! HAHAHAHAHA!! Who says work can’t be educational??? LOL!!!
Anywho… other than work, life has been pretty boring. Not much else to say really. Hope your all doing well out there!
Friday, April 26, 2013
Another sleepless night hits me, so about 4:00 a.m. I decided that would be a great time to take my trash out to the dumpster. Why you say?? Because… it don’t make a hill of beans difference what you wear or what you look like at 4 a.m. going to the dumpster cause there is NO ONE awake in the entire apartment complex to see you!! LOL!! It was a genius plan if I do say so myself. I just may have to start taking my trash out at that hour all the time hehe. Anywho… I then came back inside and made myself some coffee and a big ol breakfast. I made biscuits, sausage, and scrambled eggs. It was gooooooood! I’m not usually a big breakfast eater, but today at 4 a.m. it just sounded intriguing. After that, I cleaned up my mess from cooking, I unloaded my dishwasher, reloaded it, made out a grocery list, and then cleaned out my refrigerator. Now I am bored… the sun had come up. I’d love to sleep, but I don’t think I can. I’m not the least bit sleepy. Looks like its going to be a beautiful day!! Enjoy it!!
Thursday, April 25, 2013
What tha hell!!!???? It is 5 a.m. and I am still awake!!! This is what I look and feel like right now. That hot tea didn’t work for me as it has been. I have not been to sleep yet and it’s definitely not from the lack of trying!! I also took 3 Benadryl and some ZzzzQuil about, ohhh 5 hours ago, and it didn’t help at all. What am I gonna do if once I start working I end up having one of these nights where I just cannot go to sleep?? I will die! Ugh…..
And to top it all off… I just went in the kitchen and made a box of Kraft Macaroni and Cheese and ended up eating the WHOLE BOX! Yep…. I did it, I ate it all! I soooooooooooo don’t wanna know how many calories I just ingested there! LOL… OMG NO!!!
Well, as Pink would put it… you gotta get up and try, try, TRY. So, guess I am going to give this thing called sleep another TRY.
Once again, later my peeps
Posted in April 2013
Tagged 5 a.m., Benadryl, bipolar, bipolar disorder, calories, insomnia, kraft macaroni and cheese, my bipolar, my bipolar life, Pink, sleep, ZzzzQuil
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
I’m sitting in my bed alone, it’s very quiet and all I can do is think so I grabbed the laptop. I feel a overwelming sense of emotions trying to come over me yet I am doing all I can to suppress them. I am happy but I feel this sadness trying to creep in… my eyes are dry but they are trying to water. I had an interaction today with a very old friend who wasn’t aware that I had gotten any tattoos, so when they saw that I had, their response was, “I can’t believe you did that, did something happen in your life?” So, my response was, “Lots happened yes, but it brought me to where I am today… free and happy, so one cannot dwell on the past because it opens the door to the future.” Anyways, I am not really sure why I brought that up other than maybe because today I have run into a lot of “the past” and unfulfilled promises. I have been digging through old boxes/tubs for my high school diploma and I have found everything BUT that. Between that and the interaction I had with the old friend, it keeps bringing me back to the one tattoo I wrote and put on my back, right shoulder. With everything I have been through in my lifetime thus far, it is truly how I feel and no one has made me believe differently yet. It says:
Believe no one, Trust no one… Only yourself. Everyone will break your heart. True loves comes only from within. Always be your biggest fan. Remain a leader and never a follower.
Well, enough said for tonight. Time to make some hot tea so I can sleep.
Sunday, April 21, 2013
Well, I remained positive all month-long that I would successfully land a job before the end of the month and it happened just like that this past week! I had a really good feeling that it would if I just stayed focused and positive. I applied online late one night for a job and got called for an interview the very next morning. So I went and had my interview, did some paperwork, skills test, and then a drug test. The next day I got called and they gave me my schedule and told me about orientation which is set for tomorrow. YAY ME!!!!!!! I DID IT!!!! I FINALLY GOT A JOB!!!! Wooooo Hoooooo!!!!!!! So I guess positiveness does pay off!! Or at least it did for me!
Maybe now I can rest a little bit easier Later my Peeps!!
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Well today is going to be all about my baby!! She turns 11 years old today!! No… my baby doesn’t read or get on my website because she is not allowed nor is my oldest daughter, but… that isn’t going to stop me from celebrating her day on here!! So, I am giving her a big shout out in mind and spirit right now from mommy while she is in school….. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY PRINCESS!!! MOMMY LOVES YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!! Since today is her day, I figured I would post just a few, cause you know I got TONS, of my past fav pics of my baby Mackenzie. Right down to her first lost tooth, kindergarten graduation, Soccer, and one of my all time favs had to be when I dressed her up as Cousin Itt off the Addams Family, well I dressed the whole family one year for Halloween, I did do a good job I must say so myself… check it out! I even had “Hand” in there. See if you can find him lol! She was soooo miserable in that costume trick or treating, but it was so funny to watch, it was just priceless!! All my love on your birthday, Mommy!