Wednesday, April 24, 2013
I’m sitting in my bed alone, it’s very quiet and all I can do is think so I grabbed the laptop. I feel a overwelming sense of emotions trying to come over me yet I am doing all I can to suppress them. I am happy but I feel this sadness trying to creep in… my eyes are dry but they are trying to water. I had an interaction today with a very old friend who wasn’t aware that I had gotten any tattoos, so when they saw that I had, their response was, “I can’t believe you did that, did something happen in your life?” So, my response was, “Lots happened yes, but it brought me to where I am today… free and happy, so one cannot dwell on the past because it opens the door to the future.” Anyways, I am not really sure why I brought that up other than maybe because today I have run into a lot of “the past” and unfulfilled promises. I have been digging through old boxes/tubs for my high school diploma and I have found everything BUT that. Between that and the interaction I had with the old friend, it keeps bringing me back to the one tattoo I wrote and put on my back, right shoulder. With everything I have been through in my lifetime thus far, it is truly how I feel and no one has made me believe differently yet. It says:
Believe no one, Trust no one… Only yourself. Everyone will break your heart. True loves comes only from within. Always be your biggest fan. Remain a leader and never a follower.
Well, enough said for tonight. Time to make some hot tea so I can sleep.